my life at 17

so many things that i've been changed

for the sake of happiness,

things that i learned

not just to educate me but to become a real me,
things that i've experienced

just to kill the curiousity

and things that i've been sacrificed

just for the satisfaction of others...

problems that i've been settled

that made me who i am..

i want to be alone

not because i dont want to be with them but

because i choose it..

so many people that i've met

their random personalities

are factors that keeps them in my mind alive..

and i learned to deal with their different points of view and

im not afraid to share my thoughts with them

the bursting feeling that i choose to give for someone,

someone that i thougth as my travel companion but he was there

just for a ride and not for the journey...

at 17 i learned to love witout asking in return and let go...

so many dramas that i've done

that keeps people think that im insane but unfortunately im not..

so many times that i choose to hide my feelings

because im afraid to not understand or to be misunderstood..

at 17 i suffered in unexplained feeling,

feeling that made me so confused,

a feeling that i know that im happy and also the

feeling that puts me in the world of full of discrimination...

at 17 i learned to hide the tears in my eyes,

hiding with the sweetest smile

that would be a sweetest mistake in my life...

can't sleep at night because of the things that ruin my mind..

at 17 i never feel that i giving up even if in the hardest thing...

at 17 my life is full of lie and tricky things..

and get me lost...

but im still here trying to correct

all the things that i've done wrong..

at 17 i felt the feeling that i never felt before

NAKIKILALA KO NAG LUBOS ANG AKING SARILI

MARAMI NA RIN ANG NABAGO

AT PATULOY NA BINABAGO NG PANAHON

MASAKIT NGUNIT KAILANGAN TANGGAPIN, ITO

LAMANG ANG PARAAN PARA MABUHAY AT MALAMANG

NABUBUHAY KA SA MUNDONG ITO... MAS MARAMI PANG TAO

NA PWEDE KO PANG MAKIKILALA AT BUBUO NG AKING PAGKATAO.

someone who will accept me for who i am...

honest and trustworthy every now and then...

someone who deserve the love that i can give...

someone who will be there when im alone...

someone who will fill the missing piece of me...

someone who will make me smile in times of sadness...

someone who will share things with me...

someone who will listen to me not just for the sake of listening..

SOMEONE WHO ARE NOT afraid to do things that he never done before,

willing to learn and experience new things...

open-minded and not afraid to go beyond his comfort zone..

so hard to say goodbye on the age that you love..

mostly if you're not ready to face an age of full of responsibility..

PERO WALA TAYONG MAGAGAWA TUMATAKBO ANG ORAS..

SIGURO ORAS NA RIN

PARA MAGHILOM ANG MGA SUGAT NA GAWA

NG ATING PAGKAKAMALI...

maybe it's also a time to forget all the things that made me hurt and forgive them...

MAKAKAMTAM KO RIN ANG KASIYAHAN SA

TAMANG PANAHON...

happiness that not worth anything in this world..

a smile and laugh that not have a monetary value...

but i have three things that i give to myself as a birthday gift

first is to let go and move on..

ACCEPTING THE FACT THAT WE'RE NOT MEANT TO BE..

second is no to fake smile...and

third is to BE A REAL ME....

now im not afraid if they will know the real me...

it makes me happy...

its so narrow minded if they act negative...
duh!!!

KAYA KO TOH!!:))

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